Preparation will make you ready
You are anxious for it, but you are not ready for it. Not made ready. Not prepared for it.
Prepare in the Spring for what is need in the Summer. Prepare in the Summer what is need for the winter, for preparation is to make ready.
What is committed to God is committed to God. He will prepare you whether you’re aware of His doing or not. Whether He chooses to revel it or not.
“Commit your way to the Lord, trust also in Him and *HE* will bring it to pass.”
So be it.