Several weeks ago we decided to list our house and move elsewhere. It was a thought we’ve had in pass times, but questioned where we’d go uncertain of the future. Yet this time, when my mom made mention of it again, I was full of confidence believing it was now the appointed time to sell our house. Still uncertain of the future, but now listening in faith because the Holy Spirit confirmed that this was in fact His will. He didn’t show the whole picture but insisted that I trust Him to instruct and guide me as He revealed the passage Psalm 32:8-9 to me during the early stage of getting my home ready for the market. It reads, “I will instruct you and teach you in the way which you will go: I will guide you with my eye. Be not as the horse, or as the mule, which have no understanding: whose mouth must be held in with a bit and bridle, so they come near to you.”
Jesus promised me He’d guide me, show me the way. He told me beforehand to come to Him willingly, understanding that He is my source. And as my source He’d be all things necessary to prepare, list, sell and buy. It’s like the Samaritan woman at the well who said to Christ, “Sir, you have nothing to draw with and the well is deep. Where can you get this living water?” It was a good question she asked. Presumably, in her hands she held the necessary tool to draw water up from the well, but here was Jesus, empty handed without a bucket to catch water. And, the well was too deep to simply stretch your hand for a sip.
Friend, what the Holy Spirit shared with me in secret, I share with you openly.
Jesus didn’t and doesn’t need a “tool” or “bucket” so to speak, to catch water, water flows from Him. He’s its source. If we could ask water, “Water, how did you get here, river where do you flow from?” The waters and the rivers would say, “Jesus!” You see Jesus isn’t dependent on water water is dependent on Him. And, what comes from Him is true and alive! In this particular passage Jesus was speaking of His Spirit as the Living Water, but the same is true that He is the source of all life.
So, with my confidence in this knowledge and having been stirred by the Lord, I said “Yes” the afternoon my mom asked me about my thoughts on selling our house and moving. I committed the work to Jesus asking His help. We began packing, packing and packing. Then we cleaned, a lot, had the entire house painted, and cleaned some more. There sure were days where we thought, “Will this labour end? Will this work cease?” We prayed asking Jesus for physical and mental strength to complete the task. We prayed for ourselves and all those who aided us in the process. As I write this, I am sitting at the kitchen table covered of things to be put away. I’ll find them a place later today.
I was full of confidence as the work commenced. The Lord was directing and would show the way forward. I was confident that our faith would be in sight. I was confident we’d find a new home in time and one in our price range. I was excited and determined to finish this work and see the end intended by the Lord.
Yet, somewhere in the work and process, I lost sight of Jesus and began concerning and worrying myself. My mom began getting “cold feet.” How easily we can harm ourselves and detour our minds when our focus isn’t centred on Christ. The Holy Spirit, as the word says, “will never lead us astray…” yet we do stray, not of His doing, but of ours.
Three weeks into the operation and about five more days before we schedule it to hit the market, I anxiously and worrisomely began searching houses online. Dozens. Even my brother and His wife got into the mix. Several times we drove out of town to scope out the area. Nothing wrong with that, the thing is, Jesus also told me to wait, that it would come to me. If it was gonna come to me why was I going to it, searching for it? We had met a real estate agent the first time we took the ride there. It was nothing serious, unplanned actually, we’d had stopped there hoping to find directions to new developments in the area. It was a Saturday afternoon. We didn’t know if the office was opened but since we didn’t know our way around town my sister-in-law suggested we’d try there first. To our surprise and joy, few people were there and allowed us in. After some chitchat we exchanged emails with the agent who let us in. She gave us some stating points and we went our way. Throughout the weeks preparing our home, she’d send me listings fitting to our desire every now and then when they’d become available. We saw many in our budget, good area, right size, but nothing stood out enough to go see it. Then I saw a beautiful house sitting atop a stunning ranch amidst rows and rows of green grass and land big enough to build or farm on. I emailed the agent, but just three days after it hit the market it sold. Gone. I was glad for whoever got it, yet unhappy it wasn’t for us. If it had been for us, as led by the Holy Spirit, it would be ours.
Things were selling quickly. I began to forget that this was the Lord’s doing and that he’d promise to instruct, teach and guide me. We forgot. We became anxious. We became worried, “what if…” We lost the confidence we first had. It wasn’t a confidence in our abilities nor our real estates abilities nor the status of neither the market nor our finances; it was a peaceful and firm confidence in our Lord, His faithfulness, His care, His will, His, His and Him. Our confidence in Him got distracted as we allowed outside influences and our own inner influences to turn our focus and position away from God.
Friend, it is with great joy I share this with you. The Holy Spirit led me to read Hebrews chapter ten.
“Having therefore, brethren, boldness to enter into the holiest by the blood of Jesus, by a new and living way, which He hath consecrated for us, through the veil, that is to say, His flesh; and having an high priest over the house of God; let us draw near with a true heart in full assurance of faith, having our hearts sprinkled from an evil conscience, and our bodies washed with pure water. Let us hold fast the profession of our faith without wavering; (for He is faithful that promised;) and let us consider one another to provoke unto love and to good works: not forsaking the assembling of ourselves together, as the manner of some is; but exhorting one another: and so much the more, as ye see the day approaching. For if we sin willfully after that we have received the knowledge of the truth, there remains no more sacrifice for sins, but a certain fearful looking for of judgment and fiery indignation, which shall devour the adversaries. He that despised Moses’ law died without mercy under two or three witnesses: of how much sorer punishment, suppose ye, shall He be thought worthy, who hath trodden under foot the Son of God, and hath counted the blood of the covenant, wherewith He was sanctified, an unholy thing, and hath done despite unto the Spirit of grace? For we know Him that hath said, Vengeance belongs to me, I will recompense, said the Lord. And again, The Lord shall judge His people. It is a fearful thing to fall into the hands of the living God. But call to remembrance the former days, in which, after ye were illuminated, ye endured a great fight of afflictions; partly, whilst ye were made a gazing stock both by reproaches and afflictions; and partly, whilst ye became companions of them that were so used. For ye had compassion of me in my bonds, and took joyfully the spoiling of your goods, knowing in yourselves that ye have in heaven a better and an enduring substance. Cast not away therefore your confidence, which hath great recompense of reward. For ye have need of patience, that, after ye have done the will of God, ye might receive the promise. For yet a little while, and He that shall come will come, and will not tarry. Now the just shall live by faith: but if any man draw back, my soul shall have no pleasure in Him. But we are not of them who draw back unto perdition; but of them that believe to the saving of the soul.” After reading this passage I understood that my confidence had been shaken. When you’re confident you have heard from the Lord there is peace and faith to see it through by the portion of grace he’s allotted unto you for the task. My peace was lost and confusion sought to settle in. I went before God, asked of His forgiveness, then cried about it and asked for His help from there. I recommitted the work and our efforts to Jesus. Praise God!
Psalm 118:8, 9 “It is better to trust in the Lord than to put confidence in man. It is better to trust in the Lord than to put confidence in princes.”
2 Chronicles 32:8 “‘With Him is only the arm of flesh, but with us is the Lord our God to help us and to fight our battles.’ And the people gained confidence from what Hezekiah the king of Judah said.”
Hebrews 4:16 “Let us then approach God’s throne of grace with confidence so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need.”
Isaiah 32:17 “The fruit of that righteousness will be peace, its effect will be quietness and confidence forever.”
Jeremiah 17:7 “But blessed is the one who trusts in the Lord, whose confidence is in Him.”
Nehemiah 6:16 “When all our enemies heard about this, all the surrounding nations were afraid and lost their self-confidence, because they realized that this work had been done with the help of our God.”
Philippians 1:6 “being confident of this, that He who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus.”
Psalm 20:7 “Some trust in chariots and some in horses, but we trust in the name of the Lord our God.”
I lost my confidence in Jesus, not willingly seeking to do so, but when my focus and influences didn’t align with His ways, my hope pivoted slightly, enough to distract me. Today I have settled it in my heart and mind, even though discouragements continue, I will trust in Him.
O’ friend, trust in the Lord your God who has loved you with an everlasting love and draws you with lovingkindness. We are led back, realigned and shaped by the help of the Holy Spirit. Trust in Him. Trust in Him. Trust in Him. In the face of the uncertainty, He is constant and is our help. Resolve in yourself and set your face like a flint in determination to finish the work in faith as the Lord exposes the way before you, step-by-step. Doors of opportunity don’t stay opened forever; it will take courage to and trust to “go” when He says to. We can waste many years outside of the will of God. Beloved, be confident that you can go before Him in great hope because He will direct you and you will witness His doing if you hear and do and be just as He says and writes and wills…all by His perfect grace. Spend faith to go before Him in prayer. Spend the courage and strength to beat and overcome the process.
When it comes to His blueprints, His ways are the only way. Amen!
Keep your heart’s and mind’s focus on Christ, and position your confidence in Him, not in yourself, or another, or a thing.
-P.S. I’ll keep you posted on the selling of our home!